Inappropriate laughter...

So here's my story, my husband sent an email one night telling me that I should get my oldest daughter and watch the video of the song "Home Again" by Queensryche. It's a beautiful song and quite touching, it made our daughter cry. It's a duet sung from the perspective of the military member and their daughter during a deployment. The video is also very emotional with actual photos from service members. Anyway, it's funny how many songs will bring you to tears during deployment. I remember right before Xmas break I was driving the children to school one morning when the radio DJ played a song called "Dear Santa" about a little girl asking Santa to bring her father home on his sleigh for Christmas. Talk about tears, and then it didn't help that both of my younger 2 children latched onto that song and would sing it around the house. Also during that local broadcast, because we live near to a base there was inserted into the actual song, snipets from overseas from actual service members wishing their families back home a Merry Christmas, so at the risk of crashing your car through your tears you wouldn't dare change the radio station JUST IN CASE! ;)

After giving you all the background, I will now explain the title of this post. We've listened to these types of songs a lot, even break up songs remind us of how much we miss our father/husband. So imagine my utter astonishment when while playing the above mentioned "Home Again" for my kids today, I burst into nearly uncontrollable fits of laughter. All my children looked at me like Mom's done lost her mind! "What's so funny?" my oldest inquired but I was too busy with my giggle fit to be able to respond.

Finally it hit me how wrong it was to be laughing (not that that made me stop), I was laughing at the lyrics to the song and how much they sort of didn't match the person for whom we were listening to it in the first place. Much as I love my husband, I think he'd be the first to admit to you that he isn't exactly the most romantic/sensitive soul on the planet. And one particular lyric made me completely lose it. It's where the singer says something to the effect "I'm thinking of you, making plans for when I am home" I LOVE IT.... collective AWWWWW please.

Here is my reality the first combat deployment that my husband returned from, he came back 2 days after our 5th wedding anniversary. If I have forgotten something he did for me upon his return than I owe him an apology but I don't remember even a simply bouquet of flowers. I know at that time I also presented him with a several thousand dollar check worth the money I'd been able to put away for US while he was gone. I had been hoping for a romantic getaway with him, but instead he told me that after so much traveling he just wanted to stay home. I consider myself understanding and I didn't get ticked off about it only I wish we could've had that romantic trip.

The second time my husband came home from Iraq he arrived home the day before my birthday. I considered him the biggest birthday present I could ever have hoped for or gotten, it still rankled a little that 3 days after my birthday he was insistent on going to pick up his brand new Harley Davidson he'd purchased while deployed while at the same time, failing to even run to the grocery to get me a card. More recently he was in the field for a month right before this current deployment and returned home 2 days after my birthday, once again no cake, no card.

He is the sweetest man really and I never doubt his love for me, he shows it in other areas and I could never imagine my life without him. In fact I hope this doesn't come off as a complaint because he is truly wonderful and has also done beautiful things while he's away, flowers when I've given birth with beautifully worded cards attached, balloon bouquet and singing teddy bear for our daughter's birthday ect. It just struck me as completely funny when I heard that song earlier and you know there are so many times for tears in this life and even if at times I laugh at inappropriate times, I would prefer the laughter. So thanks honey for the giggles and I apologize if they were somewhat at your expense. ;) Love you baby.